I used to hate change.

We get so caught up in the way things are now, the state that we live in and our circumstances. Sometimes it’s so wonderful that we don’t want a thing to change, and sometimes it’s so difficult that we despair of relief. And sometimes it’s a […]

But how do you feel?

So I’m thinking today about emotions, and about conformity.

Which has probably been addressed in other, more philosophical ways, but I’m going to write this one down anyway. ‘Cause for a society that says that it’s okay to feel what you feel, and that we should be emotionally honest, and that […]

Have it your way

If you believe that God is Love, how can you believe that there is a hell?

Ah yes. Time for the essay in which I dig around through infuriating topics. Last week I posited that God is Love, and that he loves everyone, regardless of who they are and what they’ve […]

Put it down

I’ve been mulling for the past week something that Elisabeth Elliot says in Passion and Purity, about how we need to lay down everything that is ours in surrender to God. Everything. A lot of people talk about laying things down and surrendering them, but most of the time we think of it […]


I am thinking right now about how there are things that we can’t know.

This is not something I like. I prefer to know things. People have observed this about me, probably because it gets on their nerves. I like to find things out. We’ll be watching something on TV and […]

Most Important

There’s been a lot of talk floating around about the advent of the quarter-life crisis and how “what I want to do when I grow up” is becoming a question people ask in their twenties. I’ve thought about it for awhile now – it actually came up in relation to singleness and relationships, […]

Fade to Gray

I could never survive in the Pacific Northwest. We had nothing but gray skies and fog all week, and it was driving me insane. And then this morning, be it only for a few hours, the sky cleared and the sun rose and I stood in my living room with the blinds wide […]

Surrender, or…


We don’t like that word. I don’t like that word. I really don’t like it applied to me.

I’m a very independent person. I do things on my own. I like to be self-sufficient. And the word “surrender” says to me things that I don’t want.



It is human nature to try to turn every situation to our own advantage, and to find the easiest way through it. This is not a bad thing. It’s why we have engineers and explorers and artists. They are the ones who see the world a little differently from everyone else, who try […]

In Defense of the Small

Yesterday, a friend of mine (she knows who she is) told me that she and her husband are officially “old” because they got a humidifier for Christmas. (And were happy about it.) And I said, “Oh, come on. You know how excited I was about my flannel sheets, right?” It’s like we’ve got […]